New Project….TUG BOAT!

So, a year ago I put myself on a list to paint a tug boat for my town’s tug boat trail.  Seems as if every town has some icon that represents them. When I lived in Allentown, I recall horses or mules. I believe Kingston has Peacocks.  In our case, a tug boat as we have several ports….plus..Port Ewen is the name of my town.  Last week I got a call from the township asking if I still wanted to paint one and I of course said yes. I pick it up today.  Here is a Facebook link for the Tug Boat Trail:

www.facebook.com/pg/tugboattrail/about/?ref=page_internal 

They request that you paint it in acrylic paints and they will clear coat it. They will be posted around the town and then towards the fall, they are auctioned off.  I am going to go to Joann’s and get a supply of fresh acrylic paints (lucky me I was just texted a 20% off entire order digital coupon) and brushes to do the job.  My dilemma is what do I want to paint it like?  I have had a suggestion of a Childhood Cancer theme as a tribute to my personal experiences with it. I have also had the idea of making it look similar to a viking ship, but am trying to figure out how to make that work. Since the viking ship landed here earlier this year, I thought that would be a nice tribute and idea. Ryan is going to help me brainstorm. Since his drawing skills surpass mine, he will draw/sketch and I will paint.  When I pick it up this afternoon, I will post a picture of the blank canvas.

I am very excited about this. Its been years since I have painted anything other than a couple of ceramics at a local class. I will be happy when I settle on a design and set to it.

 

Edit: Here is the blank canvas…so to speak.

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What a Long Strange Year It’s Been…

I am a jumble of emotions today. I am so happy for Kyle as it’s his last day of radiation and so sad I cant be there so see him ring the bell of completion. Tonight, i get to hold him in my arms again and have him home and in a couple more weeks…permanently. I have also never been more grateful for the speed at which a year can fly by. Also, I will never take another day for granted. I am making a list of things to do when he is completely done with all this: Travel, day trips, new experiences, etc. I will enjoy every second I have on this earth with my family from now on as much as I can. I’m sorry it took this type of situation to be such a wake up call, but I have heard it and will make the most of the rest of my days here.
I am also so thankful for the people in my life. My friends, my family and even the strangers that have heard of what we’ve been going through and have offered prayers or sent written support. There are so many to list that have been supportive, kind, generous and loving.
Thank you Doug for being a great father and taking such wonderful care of him. Thank you Kerry, Sherri, Jessica, Elizabeth, Cherie, Christin, TammyLynn, Beckey, Susan, Susan, Sue, Sarah, Maria, Maria(and so many more I haven’t listed) for being there when I was a sobbing mess and needed to be held up or bitch-slapped virtually (guess who that was) and told to stay positive and that he would beat this.
Thank you Mary for talking to me that day and giving me that hope I needed to grasp onto. That assurance I needed to hear. That has kept me grounded this whole time.
Thank you Leo for being so understanding in all this and the loving son and little brother. You always have a hug for me when I was sad and always had a way to make me smile. Thank you for being so encouraging to your brother and helping him when he needed it.
Thank you Sandra for coming up and helping with hospital stays and phone calls. Thank you Roger and Colleen for all you have done too. I love you all.
Thank you to my Ryan for being my best friend and loving husband and always holding me when i collapsed and broke down through all this, all the while reassuring me he would be fine and he was strong and would get through this. Giving me strength when I needed it so desperately. Making me laugh and smile when i felt like i couldn’t. I love you dearly!
Most of all, Thank you Kyle. You have been so strong through all this and so brave. Somehow you always seemed to have a smile even when you felt like utter crap. I will make this all up to you, all that you missed this past year, I promise. Thank you for being so strong and wonderful..even you told me “i’m fine..Ill be fine!” when i was sad and scared.
It’s not all done yet but we only have a few weeks till it’s all done. Thank you God, thank you so much.

Just Shoot Me

Days like this just are so draining. It’s never just one bad thing that happens, it turns into a number of bad things.  They always feel like the pile up on my shoulders and by the end of the day im mentally drained, physically exhausted and most certainly at some point ive cried, which adds to said exhaustion.

Did the taxes this morning. Waited for weeks for some 1095B form to come so I could finish the taxes only to find out, you don’t actually need it for the tax return. Then, apparently the rate obamacare gave us for our health insurance per month wasn’t enough and we owed money back for that. That decreased our return. Getting married halved what we’re getting back from last year. And apparently buying a house didn’t do a pinch of shit in the return. So this year getting back about 5K less than last year.

That was the first thing and set the tone.

Then I printed the insurance cards for my new dental insurance and went to chose the dentist (who i had an appointment with on Tuesday for my tooth that is abscessed, and they said they take my dental insurance) only to find out they don’t take the plan type i have.  So i had to cancel my appointment and now had to find a dentist that is A- accepting new patients and B- had an appointment available for a new patient with a semi urgent problem.

At this point the headache starts.

Then there is the boss that goes on vacation and seriously micromanages when he is gone. And more of the covering his ass for the lies he tells (“oh but you should never lie cause it bites you in the ass later”). “Get that bank check for the furniture refund for that woman. I told her i mailed it already, LOL! Oh and you should priority mail it to her”.  So now its off to two banks for the, as he calls it, creative moving of money from one bank to another to cover his personal bills and his company bills. Cash from one bank deposited into his own bank (probably for fun money in florida).  He waits till he leaves to do any of this so he doesn’t have to do any of this. “Make sure the check to clear the cargo container coming in from china is FEDEX’d to the company in California to clear it.”  The fedex pick up, which we scheduled yesterday to come no later than 430 didnt come till 530.  We close at 5. Guess who stayed late for that?!?!

Go to post office to get an priority envelope (cause, oh yea he threw them out cause he never uses them) and ask for some tape to attach the label. “we don’t give out tape. You have to buy it. Didnt the boss give you money for when he is away?”  I just gave her this are you fucking kidding me look. Stormed out in a huff..ran back to the office (cause said boss doesnt leave money for us to run his business while he is gallivanting on the beach in florida cause he needs the money for said gallivanting) to tape the fucking label onto the envelope and went back to the stingy tape hoarding post office and slammed the envelope on the counter in front of her and walked out without a word. Cause if I’d said a word to her…it probably would have resulted in Ryan need to get bail money for me.

At this point I still havent eaten lunch because all the crap going on in the office, I didnt get lunch and really didnt have the money or inclination to spend the minimum 20 bucks for delivery w/o a fee on take out. The pawn shop guy went to one place and didnt ask if I wanted anything. See if buy him fucking coffee again any time soon.  So yes, Im hangry on top of all this.

At 445 while i was at the post office (yes i know these are all over and not in chronological order to how the day went) the boss calls and ryan answers and the boss wants me to run a credit card for 3k of a client that gave the ok. Mind you, he can log in from his laptop and do it himself but again….gallivanting on beach. I ended up doing this from home because there were internet issues at work towards the end of the day.

When i got home and i was walking the dog around the yard (after i cleaned up a greeting card he found somewhere and chewed up) i moved a piece of split firewood (stuff not stacked yet) and got a half inch splinter in my palm.  Took Rollo back in, got tweezers and pulled it out and then got work gloves and went outside and stacked all the unstacked wood. Burned off some of the anger inside me but not enough.

One good thing: my favorite customer and also now friend, came in to put more cash on her furniture that she has on layaway and she brought me Easter chocolate. I love this woman. That was about the only sustenance that I got today along with the coffee I had gotten at 745 am. (oh and yea that cash i was made to deposit into his personal account. i asked to keep some for while he is gone for any expenses but he said no).

Tomorrow i have a job interview. I check on one today I went to two weeks ago and they have not made a decision yet. I am actively looking for work so i don’t have to have this stress anymore. I am trying to do something about it, not just staying here and complaining.